Life is good

hello world, well spring has sprung. Finally. Easter flowers are up the trees are budding and the weather is terrific. and i feel better than i have for 2 years since this night mare started. yep i finally feel normal again. you know its funny but the pain i have had all across my tummy area from the surgery.it is finally gone. i dont know when it happened but it just dawned on me one day that it didnt hurt any more. oh man what a relief. finally to be pain free. i noticed that i can flop over in bed now instead of turning slowly. its so cool. man i almost dont know how to act any more.but looking forward to being able to get out side and do things. my past 2 summers have both been shot. first with chemo then with the reconstruction surgery. i was suppose to go back to my plastic surgeon but i canceled the appointment. he just wanted to talk about more surgery. and as good as i feel now there is no way i am gonna put my self through that again.it is just not worth it.i am getting to old to worry about little things . i have a life and i am gonna get on with it. i have put my family through enough. my husband and daughter were great through all this and i love them bunches. so we all can live a normal life now. just enjoy life. so for now i am gonna do just that. my next big thing is a mammogram the end of june and i will probably not post any more till then. so say prayers for a good out come for me. love and blessings to all.
Padiddle

It is a bright new sun shiny day

Today i had an appointment with my radiology doctor. It went well.She was glad to see that i am feeling god and had more hair. Even though it is still very much thinner. Its hair i dont care if its pink yellow or blue. It hair. And it on my head.I am proud as a peacock. So anywho i had an appointment with the lady who fits people for prosthetic breasts after i saw my radiology doctor. Well as you may know if you have read my blog. I had breast reconstruction surgery in june of 06. However it didnt go well for me. After 3 months of fat necrosis and stuffing holes and a second surgery to repair the problems with the first surgery. I had 2 smaller areas of fat necrosis holes to stuff for about another month. needless to say what i ended up with is not pretty to look at unfortunately. And though i had the right side reduced to match the left side they built. The left side is much misshapen and smaller than the right. The doctor wants to do another complete surgery using tissue from my back to fix it. Well now that i am finally feeling normal after these 2 years of trials and tribulations there is no way i am going through this again. Thus the appointment with the "boob lady". Anyway i had already decided regardless of the out come i was done with surgery. So we met. And to tell you the truth i really didnt expect this to have a positive outcome. I just didnt think there would be a prosthesis that we could get to fit well over the bump i had there. Guess What? WE DID . HOORAY. I walked out of there as happy as a bug in a rug. With 2 MATCHING BOOBS!

That is not the plan i had in mind certainly. And knowing what i know now. I would never have had the surgery in the first place. But as they say hindsight is 20/20. So in a way i am back where i started. after my mastectomy. Wearing a fake Boob. But you know what its my body . And quite frankly scarlet "I just dont give a damn". So there you go. Thats my story and i`m sticking to it.

Paddidle