WEATHER

hello world, well we have moved into december. i hate cold weather. i love sunshine. not much of it this time of year either. thanksgiving has come and gone now to get thru christmas. i also hate the holidays. i am just not a winter person. though thanksgiving was good. we had a lot of food. the kids were here along with angie's new boyfriend, eric. he is very nice. i think he might be a keeper. yeah well in case i forgot to mention it angie got a divorce this past summer. her ex was just to weird to live with. he had serious issues that made it impossible for her to stay with him. so there doing great on there own. geesh the grand kids are growing up so fast. cass will be 18 in january and graduates high school in 2010. bud is getting a mustache geesh. they are both great kids. the next time i go to doc brager i will be 5 years cancer free. woooo hoooooo. man i cant believe it. im doing great. except for getting older and clumsier. if it can be messed up i can do it. lol. im not going into details here, just believe it. oh and speaking of weather. im kind of a weather fan. love the weather chanel and jim cantore. i have got a new weather station that is on the net now with weather underground. charles helped me set it all up. he is the geek of the family. without him i couldnt do it. my station ID is, KWVBUCKH7. or http://baileyridge.buckhannonlive.com/index.html, there is the link. lol. and again charles set up the page for me. he can do anything on a computer. its amazing to watch him. i really love having him around, he is great fun. well anywho. its past my bedtime i just wanted to update this thing i call my cancer blog. i dont talk much about cancer in it anymore. so i will just chat about what ever my heart desires i guess. love to everyone, family and friends. i thank god for you all and my wonderful life. padiddle for now, robin

Broken

Well, i dont watch much tv anymore. however i do stil watch house,that is dr house. he plays a crotchity old doctor. sometimes funny sometimes pathetic. tonights episode for the opening season was titled, Broken. i hope a lot of people watch it. it certainly was interesting. funny, sad, first one emotion then another. it made me cry it made me laugh. gee thats pretty much me at times. just dont take much to switch my moods. either im happy or sad. or just dont give a shit. lol. but i would be willing to bet most people get that way. sometimes i wonder if were all not "BROKEN" in some way. why is there cancer? why is there mental illness? why do some get it and some dont? god only knows. thankfully most people handle lifes day to day problems well. for those of us that dont, there are drugs. lol thank god for drugs. thank god for family, friends, and the internet. those things keep me sane more so than drugs. but drugs help. now im talking prescription drugs of course. though if marijuana were made legal here in good ole WV, hell ya i would buy it. im in a "mood" tonight. to quote a friend. life gives us all sorts of things to deal with. some good, some not so good. i have had lots of good and i have had lots of bad. so have others. i have a friend, gail, who recently found out her cancer is back. why? who knows. maybe one day mine will be too. who knows. i hope not. but i always wonder why. why some and not others. why not me? yeah i always wonder that. no one knows. no one will ever know. and why sadness and depression. have you ever thought that there is just one thing that can happen to make another person come completely unglued. one thing is all it takes. one singl event. or one action. or one word. and suddenly your head turns inside out. how do you recover from something like that. how do you overcome it. another who knows answer. for each person its different. some run away. some pretend it didnt happen. untill another event sets them back into that otherly world of omg im nuckin futs. i think we have all had those times in our lives. when we wonder, whats wrong with me? why did i do that? why did i say that? god help me cause i dont know. but most of us are able to step back and think about it. see it from a different standpoint. try to figure it out in our heads. somehow make it right. make it so that you can understand it. in your mind at least. maybe others dont. i think we all have times that were weak. mentally and physicaly. though we dont like others to know it. we try to handle problems from within ourselves. and hopefull for most that works. because if it dont, others end up getting hurt by that one thing. just that one thing. i like to think that there are happy people and sad in this world. so the next time you are so blissfully happy. there is someone somewhere who just got told they have cancer. someone who found out there child was just killed in a car wreck. there are both ends to the scale of emotions. why do some people suffer to protect others. a mother who goes without so her children can have better things. people who love each other but know they cant share that love. because others would be hurt. why is there so much pain? is it any wonder the world is such a mess. so anywho, just my thoughts for the night. all brought on by dr. house. lol. i really hope that when people watch this show they see it as a life learning experience. that you grow from it. that you learn there is more in this world than what you want. its more important to have what you need. i mean really it is. love and happiness is what its all about really. true friends are hard to find. honest ones that is. oh well enough of my mood for one night. just want to say i love my friends and family. have a great life folks. padiddle, Robin

follow up mammo

well gee 6 months sure goes fast. especially when its summer and your having fun. lol,,, i had my follow up and got the results. no signs of cancer. yaaaaaaaaa for me. woooo hoooooo... well thats all good then. except that my first cancer didnt show up on the mammo. oh well. so life goes on. and for me its a great life. with wonderful friends and family. speaking of family. i have adopted a brother. lol,,, his name is charles, otherwise known as PRARIEDOG. i love him to death. he is a very special friend to ben and me both. having PD here has kept me busy this summer. he is so smart and very funny. also infuriating at times. but then i am not easy to get along with at times. so its all good. PD and ben built me a new deck. oh its so nice. thank you guys so much. well its time for school to start. geesh the kids are growing up so fast. cass will graduate from high school next year. jeremiah is in middle school now. man am i getting old. but i love those kids so much. there great kids. angie divorced D this summer. she is living on her own for the first time in her life. im very proud of her. her and the kids are doing great. so winter is coming and i hope its mild. i hate the cold. and ben and pd both have to work out in it. it sucks for them and others who have to be in the cold.i hope they stay warm enough. well thats about all i know for now. in april i will be going on my 5 years cancer free. hope it stays away. see you all soon. if there is anyone reading this that might have cancer. i wish you luck and just know there is life after cancer. trust in god and enjoy every day your given. love and happiness to all,padiddle, Robin

just another mammo

well its been a year since my last post. mammo time again. i went monday feb. 16th. it went well very quickly and no extra film was needed. on the 20th i got the results. wouldnt you know, they see someting. it appears to be non cancerous. but, they want a followup in 6 months. well thus is the life. doesnt surprise me at all. im not gonna worry about it. in the mean time. im feeling great, getting on with life as a cancer survivor. i bought a treadmill. have been trying to walk a mile 3 or 4 days a week at least. im really surprised that i can. i figured it would make my hips or knees hurt, but remarkably my joints feel better. i was doing so good the first month i lost 8 pounds. then i started feeling bad my bp was a little high. so i eased up on walking. then ben got sick and passed it to me. some sort or tummy bug. i didnt walk for at all for a week. now im back to walking i hope i can keep it up. i really feel so much better when i walk. oh and a quick word about the holidays. we had a guest for christmas. prariedog is a truck driver. he had a run to southern wv just before christmas. so since he was that close we asked him to spend the holidays with us. he parked his truck at our super walmart. it was so good to share our holiday with him. at least he wasnt alone like so many other drivers that haul cross country. everyone needs friends and family and especially on holidays. he was perfect gentleman and not a bit of bother. we loved having him with us. everyone should apreciate americas truck drivers they do a lot to keep us in our necessaties that we use in our everyday lives. everything we use is brought by truck to our stores. where would we be without them. its not an easy life being a truck driver they dont get paid near enough for all they do. my family is great as always. love you all a bunch. ben, angie, cass, and bud, you make my life so happy and full. till next time world i wish good health and happiness to all. padiddle, Robin