Broken

Well, i dont watch much tv anymore. however i do stil watch house,that is dr house. he plays a crotchity old doctor. sometimes funny sometimes pathetic. tonights episode for the opening season was titled, Broken. i hope a lot of people watch it. it certainly was interesting. funny, sad, first one emotion then another. it made me cry it made me laugh. gee thats pretty much me at times. just dont take much to switch my moods. either im happy or sad. or just dont give a shit. lol. but i would be willing to bet most people get that way. sometimes i wonder if were all not "BROKEN" in some way. why is there cancer? why is there mental illness? why do some get it and some dont? god only knows. thankfully most people handle lifes day to day problems well. for those of us that dont, there are drugs. lol thank god for drugs. thank god for family, friends, and the internet. those things keep me sane more so than drugs. but drugs help. now im talking prescription drugs of course. though if marijuana were made legal here in good ole WV, hell ya i would buy it. im in a "mood" tonight. to quote a friend. life gives us all sorts of things to deal with. some good, some not so good. i have had lots of good and i have had lots of bad. so have others. i have a friend, gail, who recently found out her cancer is back. why? who knows. maybe one day mine will be too. who knows. i hope not. but i always wonder why. why some and not others. why not me? yeah i always wonder that. no one knows. no one will ever know. and why sadness and depression. have you ever thought that there is just one thing that can happen to make another person come completely unglued. one thing is all it takes. one singl event. or one action. or one word. and suddenly your head turns inside out. how do you recover from something like that. how do you overcome it. another who knows answer. for each person its different. some run away. some pretend it didnt happen. untill another event sets them back into that otherly world of omg im nuckin futs. i think we have all had those times in our lives. when we wonder, whats wrong with me? why did i do that? why did i say that? god help me cause i dont know. but most of us are able to step back and think about it. see it from a different standpoint. try to figure it out in our heads. somehow make it right. make it so that you can understand it. in your mind at least. maybe others dont. i think we all have times that were weak. mentally and physicaly. though we dont like others to know it. we try to handle problems from within ourselves. and hopefull for most that works. because if it dont, others end up getting hurt by that one thing. just that one thing. i like to think that there are happy people and sad in this world. so the next time you are so blissfully happy. there is someone somewhere who just got told they have cancer. someone who found out there child was just killed in a car wreck. there are both ends to the scale of emotions. why do some people suffer to protect others. a mother who goes without so her children can have better things. people who love each other but know they cant share that love. because others would be hurt. why is there so much pain? is it any wonder the world is such a mess. so anywho, just my thoughts for the night. all brought on by dr. house. lol. i really hope that when people watch this show they see it as a life learning experience. that you grow from it. that you learn there is more in this world than what you want. its more important to have what you need. i mean really it is. love and happiness is what its all about really. true friends are hard to find. honest ones that is. oh well enough of my mood for one night. just want to say i love my friends and family. have a great life folks. padiddle, Robin